The question on the application was:
"Evaluate a significant experience or achievement that has special meaning to you."
And this is what I came up with:

Two weeks after my 15th birthday, my best friend Robin was tentatively diagnosed with leukemia. She was 16. She called me to say that she was driving with her grandmother to Salt Lake City for a more concrete diagnosis. That was the last I heard from her for almost a week. During that time I went through nearly every emotion imaginable -- from fear, to anger, to sorrow. I almost felt that I had lost her already.

I called everywhere I thought she might be. Finally, I called her uncle, who told me the name of the hospital where she was. She was in the intensive care unit. That is what scared me the most; she had been in intensive care while I was hoping she'd had a false alarm. I was frightened that we could be so out of touch. I was terrified that I could have lost her without even knowing it, without having a chance to tell her all the things I hadn't thought to say.

At the end of that week, I drove to Salt Lake with my mother and another friend. To see Robin in intensive care was only the first difficult event in a series of emotionally draining episodes. During the month she spent in the hospital, she lost more than 30 pounds, all of her hair, and most of her strength. When she got out of the hospital, she was so weak that she got tired going to the bathroom and couldn't open a can of soda. I felt helpless and the more helpless I felt, the angrier I got. I couldn't understand how something like this could happen to someone like Robin.

Robin's protocol required two years of chemotherapy. I made a conscious decision to stick by her every step of the way. Though I was sure that it would be hard for me to see her go through painful and sickening treatments, I absolutely refused to let her go through them alone. We became much closer during those two years. She said some things that will stay with me for the rest of my life. She told me to go after the things I want because if I don't, I may not be around to try for them next week. She said she thought perhaps life should be shorter so we could appreciate what time we have all the more.

She told me to never give up because there is always something worth fighting for. She lived that truth. Even though if two more days had passed before diagnosis, she would have died, she refused to give in to it. She stood against it and challenged it. She said to it, "You can try to take me, but I'll not make it easy for you. I have things I want to do that I havenUt had the chance to do yet." Nothing has inspired me like her courage.

She graduated with her class, despite the fact that she had to catch up with more than three months of work in her junior year, and do all of her work at home. She is now attending a technical school and has finished her chemotherapy protocol. The most important thing that she has given me is a greater understanding of what it means to be alive; how important it is to truly live life. She showed me there are things that have to be worth all of our energy to make our lives worthwhile.

"The very least you can do in life is figure out what you believe in. And the very most you can do is live within that belief," said a character in a book I once read. There isn't a truer statement, and I saw Robin live it.

I believe in friendship and learning and wisdom and love. I believe in life and courage and creating a world worth passing on to the next generation. I believe in giving something everything so that humanity can share in its beauty. I believe in living to my fullest potential so that I can be proud of myself when I look back on my life.

(This was a college entrance essay, written in 1994. The language may not be what I'd use today, but the lesson holds true.)


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